It's setting in

It's starting to set in that I'm senior. That so many of the people I have loved won't be in the halls of NFHS with me this year, so many of them won't be in this part of the state, so many won't even be in this state. It's all honesty starting to seem quite scary and saddening. In the past week I've said five goodbyes each worse than the last.

One friend has already been gone for a week an even came back this past weekend for Jazz Fest which like the past two years we spent mainly together.

Last Thursday I made my way out to an Anderson's ice cream place to say goodbye to three of my best friends who are a part of the eight, occasionally nine of us who do almost everything together since Presbyterian Youth Triennium. Saying goodbye to them made reality set in. I handed the twins Jamie & Ian their grad card and gave Mark his last present. Mark over this past year has been a life savor at so many points, I really don't know what I would have done without him. We didn't become close though until one late night (all-nighter) at a lock in last december. So I took the picture of us from that night and put a Weepie's quote uderneath.

We all hugged goodbye. I went on to the last night of marching band camp (which was a disaster) and they went home. I began to sob. The next day Mark moved into school and like I've always known even if we can only talk once a day we will stay good friends.

Monday night of this week I got together with two people I've recently grown very close with who are also leaving. We spent the night laughing, not to bad for a goodbye I believe. :)

School will just be different this year, I have no doubts about that. But I'm starting to get excited for the year ( even if my schedule is a mess). I'm pretty sure that's a good thing to feel with the year starting in six days. ;)